I'm not sure why I still believe it can happen for us naturally?
I think I just need to give up believing it can, as it is becoming really exhausting! I think I'm just going to resign myself to the fact that we are not going to conceive without IVF.
I know that sounds negative, but I am just so tired of getting my period month in and month out even though I ovulate and we have the timing of our 'baby dance' absolutely perfect!
It's kind of a relief to have come to this point, I must say.
I think this can be a good place to come to. Honestly. I am there too. I tried 2 years naturally and it never once worked. IVF did. I know that for some people miracles happen and that is peachy and all...but it does no good to put stock in something with such a low rate of possibility. If it does happen naturally someday, I'll be happy. If not, at least I knew it was almost impossible.
ReplyDeleteHey. I know how you are feeling - I have a pretty perfect 27 day cycle etc, but no joy with the natural way so we are IVFing (most probably my age though). This is such a frustrating journey. It feels good to make decisions though, ah?
ReplyDeleteAF sucks. Period. Hugs hun.
ReplyDeleteSorry about the AF... hugs.... I also had to get to the point where I acknowledged I needed medical help.. it isn't easy, but in some ways it is freeing..
ReplyDeleteI feel like we cycle through the stages of grief every month and denial is a bitch. I keep thinking that I'm being a hypochondriac and if I would just cut it out I would get pregnant. My psyche is obnoxious. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteI too know the feeling. I know for sure that I ovulated this month. Most likely I'll get my new cycle in early March without fail. I hope that your next IVF will give you a baby to hold.
ReplyDeleteIt took me a while to come to terms with needing IVF. Hell, it's still a work in progress. Hang in there and we are all here for you.
ReplyDeleteAF sucks! I took me a while to just give up the dream of doing it on our own. I mourned it for a long time. I am glad I did. I feel like it made moving on to IUI a little easier and if I have to do IVF I will get there too. Hugz!
ReplyDeleteThat's a hard place to get to but I think once our mind really gets to that point its a little easier to move forward with treatment. That being said, I think there's always a little magical part to us that wants to believe that "it could happen."
ReplyDeleteI had the same thought in my head looking towards ivf #2 and I wanted to kick myself for even letting that thought in. Now were moving forward with the science and technology that is ivf and praying for our baby.
We're here for you friend!
Thank you so much to you all for your support and thoughts - its so unbelievably nice to know I'm not alone in this.
ReplyDeleteHey girl! Hope you're doing ok... I tagged you in a little interview on my page if you'd like to join in some silliness!
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